Not a good blogger!

So a year goes and no blogging. I am pitiful...or just blame it on living a good life and not worrying.

Unfortunatly, those days are over. I had confirmation of cancer reoccurance in January and have been on chemo since March. Life is throwing me for a loop and I am doing my best to stay calm and positive. I am not ready to die. I intend to fight, fight, fight and not give up. I am realistic about the statistics and my chances, but that doesnt mean I am not the lucky 1%...someone has to be.

Hans and I are as close as ever. He really is my rock. We are such a team it makes thiss journey both more bearable and less frightening, but also so much sadder as I think what would happen to him if I died. I worry so much about him and my sister.

I got my scan results today. The tumor isnt shrinking, but it isnt growing either. There remains a slight possiblity of having a surgery to remove the tumor. I pray that it happens. A cancerous lymph node appears not to have cancer anymore, however the suspicious spot on my liver that they cant tell if it is cancer of not has grown. So I have both positive and negative news...such is life.

My sister is here and she is probably bored stiff. I am so tired that it is hard to do anything. I hope my health holds out so we can go to Germany to travel a bit. I am very glad she is here, I miss her so much.